Why hello Paperback Fool. How have you been these past two weeks? Great? …Aw, not so great? Wait, what? I’ve been abandoning you for at least a MONTH?! My goodness, what a horrible mother am I.
However, I’d like to recognize today, my friends. Today will probably be the FIRST time I’ve had a normal Saturday in—forever. Well, in the last three to four weeks, at least. Anyways, I’m not completely sure what to do with myself. I DO have to work, but not excessively. I will be spending some quality time with The Scarlet Letter. I should also write a few blog entries for you—dear Paperback Fool—so that I never get this behind ever again.
But perhaps I should give everyone a brief update on what I’ve been up to these past four weeks. These four, lost weeks. I think list format is best:
- The weekend before launch, my mom and Joel’s mom came up to visit.
- The week before launch, I experienced my first panic attack since college. Came down with a semi-frightening case of anxiety that has only now gone away.
- I launched the Birmingham Patch Nov. 5.
- Friends from Clifton/UC came up the weekend after launch. Nice visit. Bad timing.
- Worked like a mad woman in an attempt to establish some sense of normality in my everyday routine. Failed. Felt perpetually behind. Stayed up until 4:30 a.m. at least three times (have never done that, even in college). Went to at least three four-hour meetings. Cried. Cried. Cried. Slept on the couch. Felt like a failure. Hobnobbed with Birmingham’s fancy citizenry. Saw Mitch Albom and despised him for writing Tuesdays with Morrie. Saw Mike Lupica and kept forgetting he’s done more than write YA sport novels. Drank more coffee than I ever thought humanly possible. Was told I was a great writer. Was told I wasn’t.
- We bought a chaise lounge for our living room.
- Our cats were fixed, and bringing them home was one of the most stressful drives of my life.
- Went half a month without obsessing over how much money is in my bank account.
- Finally figured out how to plan ahead. The days start calming down.
- Pick up The Scarlet Letter a few times.
- Watch Pride & Prejudice twice in a row during one of my late-night, caffeine-fueled work sessions.
- Was asked why I never sleep.
- Had my first “working” lunch.
- Saw Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 1 at midnight, Nov. 19. Cried at least three times, and couldn’t get over how UH-MAZING it is.
- Became closer with a new friend.
- Spent quality time at the library, my new “safe house.”
- Was awkwardly hit on for the first time in….years.
- Skipped a work event to spend time with Joel, save over $50 at Kohls (really!), buy my parents a Thanksgiving present, and sleep more than 9 hours. Was worth every second.
And so, yeah. That’s been my life. I don’t want to say too much about my pre- and post-launch experience with Patch, but I wanted to be honest about how I’ve felt: horrible and proud. Things are finally calming down, and I want to start writing more here to help me return to my pre-Patch level of sanity. Of course, I’m writing all the time now, so writing even more seems a bit silly. But it’s not. Writing books reviews, literary devotionals or random musings helps to calm my mind. Reading more—which maintaining this blog demands—does that even more.
So I’m back, everyone. I hope my readers come back after dealing with so much radio silence, but I have faith in you guys.